Checkup with the Surgeon

I hadn't seen Dr. M., the colorectal surgeon, since he did my biopsy back in May: The Biopsy
It was time to see him again. Dr. Who had suggested to me that the surgeon would be able to get a good look inside, using the 'illuminated dildo', to see if the tumor was really gone and to do any necessary biopsy follow-ups.
Dr. M did examine me, but only on the outside. He said it didn't look like I was ready for any probing exams with the anoscope. There was still the results of the radiation burns in. The odd protuberances that Dr. Who thought were hemmoroids, were just more trauma from treatment. He told me to keep on using the silvadene for the burns and to use lidocaine too for the pain.
I had wanted to have the exam, to know if everything had worked as promised. But I also was very relieved NOT to have it, cause yeah, there IS a lot of pain still.

Good News from Dr. Who

I went to see Dr. Who. It was a routine visit; he only planned to check the progress of my backside burns. But my anxiety had been growing lately. I begged him to check out if the tumor was gone or not.

He warned me it might be painful but I was willing to try. And after the exam he told me he had felt no tumor where tumor used to be. Sorry little tumor, but I think you have been defeated!

This, of course, is not the definitive test. I'll have to go and see the surgeon who did the biopsy. He's the one who has the 'illuminated dildo' as I like to call it. Others might say 'anoscope'.

And in a few months time, I'll also have to have another PET scan to check out all my other organs.

But in the meantime, Dr. Who's exam made me awfully happy.