Weird Fingernail Changes.

I used to have normal pink fingernails, but lately they have changed. At the bottom they are an eerie white color. Not nice little white moons...no, just a ghostly fade out, like a reverse french style nail. I think it's left over residue from the chemo.

Online, there are a lot of sites claiming to be able to identify disease from the looks of your fingernails. But having had all that poisonous chemo injected into me, all bets are off on what is going on. I think it will fade as time goes by, but of course, I'll check with the doctors.

Working at BWAC

I'm feeling better although sitting for any length of time is still quite uncomfortable. So I decided to so some volunteer work at BWAC. That's the Brooklyn Waterfront Artists Coalition, located in Redhook, that I am a member of. My volunteer work usually consists of stuffing envelopes and I like to stand while I do it. The BWAC office is currently working out of OHM Acoustics, owned by John Strohbeen, BWAC's intrepid president. As I stuffed and stamped, those weird hoots and wails of the speakers are constantly playing in the background.
Afterwards I went out to dinner with Jane, BWAC's Arts Administrator. It was a lovely outdoor place on Smith Street: Bar Tabac.

Checkup with the Surgeon

I hadn't seen Dr. M., the colorectal surgeon, since he did my biopsy back in May: The Biopsy
It was time to see him again. Dr. Who had suggested to me that the surgeon would be able to get a good look inside, using the 'illuminated dildo', to see if the tumor was really gone and to do any necessary biopsy follow-ups.
Dr. M did examine me, but only on the outside. He said it didn't look like I was ready for any probing exams with the anoscope. There was still the results of the radiation burns in. The odd protuberances that Dr. Who thought were hemmoroids, were just more trauma from treatment. He told me to keep on using the silvadene for the burns and to use lidocaine too for the pain.
I had wanted to have the exam, to know if everything had worked as promised. But I also was very relieved NOT to have it, cause yeah, there IS a lot of pain still.